Cuz I Know I'm Good For Something

my oh my, i love you guys, oh so very much
its like you have making me feel like shit down to a fucking t
i guess i dont really have anyone to blame but myself huh?
im sure you wouldnt mind shoving that little theory down my throat
well here it is
my mouth is open
shove all the shit you want

people talk about all this wishy washy stuff
i love you
i hate you
yatta yatta
people say thats how i am
its funny
because thats not how i am with you
i love you
there is no hate about it
simple huh?
fuck no
but we can say that

and you my dear
you hate me?
really now/
oh thats sweet
i hope you have fun ranting about me behind my back
go ahead with your blog posts
and your rants
really i enjoy the fact that to my fucking face
you act like everything is chill
what does that make you?
hmm
the word is on the tip of my tongue
ah well, im sure you know what im talking for
nope
i dont hate you
i dont dislike you
frankly, i think you're a pretty amazing little girl
but thats exactly what you are
a little girl
i sincerely hope your relationship works out
really, i seriously do
im not some crazy homewrecker out to ruin your relationship
but hey
think what you want
i dont care

oh babe, you're an amazing friend
do you realize that?
i really dont think you do
i havent the slightest clue what i would do without you
i think i'd probably lose my mind
its like you're the Only person
who can really get what im going through
without judging me
you dont have to give advice
you just love me
for me
and are there for me
you dont try to change me
you dont yell at me
you understand that i make mistakes
that i fall apart
that i lash out
you're a fantastic and amazing woman

i wish i could love you.
but then again
maybe me loving you isnt a good idea
people i love
dont seem to turn out so well in the end

Cutting
Cutters
Cuttings

Yes that was a full sentence
yes it makes sense
is that what im doing?
i dont know
im cutting myself
making myself bleed
maybe with this next cut something will happen
i dont want attention
i could give half a damn if you cared
i just want it all to be okay
pathetic as it sounds
i want to be happy
im sure half of you out there want me dead
or out of your lives
thats totally chill with me
as much as i'd love for you to be in my life
i cant make you stay
those of you who want me around
well hello there
how're you?

"Cuz I Know I'm Good For Something, I Just Haven't Found It Yet"