Breathing

Who said birthdays were supposed to be happy?
It started out nice
Movies
Cute Kitties
Visitation
Seeing his face again
His hair
His eyes
Having him in my arms
Even if it was only for a few minutes
I'd nearly forgotten how
Right
It felt to be around him
He smells like heaven on earth
I cried
And he didnt walk away
He held me there
He wouldnt do that if he didnt care would he?
I dont know what i was thinking
Of course he cares about me
Then he had to leave
And i felt like a piece of me left with him
Im not sure thats such a bad thing
While it hurt like hell
A piece of me is with him
Watching over him
Protecting him from anything and everything
I took a walk
Got lost in my thoughts
Almost lost hope
Almost gave up
I dreamt
And he was there
I dreamt
And i felt his love
I dreamt
And i woke up.

"Breathing and Bleeding, Breathing and Bleeding, Simultaneously"