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Appalled
      by your tone
      by your words
When did you become so
     heartless
     cruel
How did I miss the
    signs
    clues

Who are you?

Head Pains

Spinning
Nauseous
Confused
              -pounding-

Where did we lose control?
When did we start spiraling?
             -lights-

Everything is so
Blurry
Spotted
Twisted
             -screaming-

Where are we?

Oceanfront

Salt.

Ice cold.

Tickle my feet.

Sand in my toes.

Wind in my hair.

Mist in my face.

Closed eyes.

Full moon.

High tide.

Take me.

Hide me.

Exhale.

Gone.

Implode

I can feel it in me.

Deep in me.

Down in the pit of my stomach.

The opposite of butterflies

Rather little moths

Eating away at me

Ready to expose my soul to the earth.

I know one way to get rid of you

(must not)

(can not)

(will not)

Try to cope

Try to handle it

(breathe)

(breathe)

(breathe)

Where is my air?

Breathing should make this better

Why are my lungs still screaming

My chest continually heaving

Where is my air?

Failure to cope

Failure to handle it

(you are strong)

(you are strong)

(you are strong)

Close your eyes

Hold your breath

(one)

(two)

(three)

(gasp)

Repeat.

Redo.

Retry.

Feel that?

(inhale)

(exhale)

(inhale)

You're back

You've got this

You're strong

Tired.

I try
I keep trying
I am always trying

I made my goals
I work for my goals
I fight for my goals

I love
I laugh
I live

You.

Won't. Can't. Will Not.

Break me down.

Resolute. Resolve. Reserve. Restructure.

Why not find that one word.

One word to define what you want this new year to bring in.

One word.

It'll take more than

One

Hour

Day

Month

One word.

It'll change more than

One

Mind

Heart

Life

One word that encompasses it all.

My word:

Stability.

In

I get a
Second
Third
Fourth
Chance

I
Cant
Wont
Refuse
To mess this up