And Hate Me, If It Feels Good

I could never hate you, no matter how could it would feel. I love you too much. And Damn you for making me love you so. You used to be such a great guy, so sweet, so wonderful, you were amazingly gentle with me when i needed you, whatever happened to that guy? The guy that used to make me smile when i was sad, make the the rain on my parade go away.

I loved you so much, how could you hurt me so much? You told me you loved me only as a sister, and okay, i understand that, i will never hold that against you. But you betrayed me. You lied to me. You cheated on me. You broke my heart. And you never said sorry. You never apologized. You just left. Left me alone, to pick up the pieces of my broken heart.

And now you return, coming back in my life. Saying I've changed, that you like the new me. What about the old me? What that not good enough for you? Yes I have changed, but has it been for the better? When will you stop. When will you leave, when will i stop loving you? Will I ever.

I dont think i could ever stop loving you, you are a part of me and always will be. I KNOW that if you asked me to be yours, I would accept it, I would go through the pain all over again, if it meant that i could call you mine, and you could call me yours. I would do it again. Because you mean That much to me.

But what do i mean to you?

And Hate Me, If It Feels Good

~Maya~